The New Year

 You are here. In this Moment.

It is Moment with a capital M, because it is the most important thing.

Not the only thing, your past happened.

Your future exists.

But your breath is in this Moment.

A breath comes in. A breath goes out.

Do you realize how beautifully you did this past year?

In the ashes of the obliterated, you summoned enough hope to look for the spark of the Phoenix, one feather at a time.

In the face of Loneliness so razor-sharp and bitter, the shards threatened to shatter your heart into a thousand irretrievable pieces, you took your bravest breath ever.

And let the light the breath rode in on, illuminate the vastness of the space you thought was so small and fragile.

The broken places were just doors, so the light could get in.

When the hot breath of Fear so intense and fiery burned all reserves of Courage save one,

you lifted a tremulous hand to open the door and say, “Come Dragon, come in, you are finally welcome here.

Long have I run from you, hid, cursed you, reviled you, hired those to hunt you down and kill you.

No more. Here is a place for you. Sit while I tend to you.

Hear your story.

Kiss your wounds.

Receive your gifts, for they are many.

Forgive me Dragon, for not realizing who you are.

What you were saying.

What you were trying to give me.

I love you.”

When the gossamer-winged Phantoms of your dreams dissolved one after another, just as your hand reached out to receive them, you chose to allow the waves of disappointment so deep there was barely room for breath, carry you to a distant shore you never knew of.

Where a land of possibilities awaited you, far greater than even the greatest one you ever could have of dreamt of before.

All this time you thought you were failing.

Getting it wrong.

That the very existence of you was wrong.

But every day of this year dearest, you chose Life.

When you said, I don’t believe.

Still you breathed.

When you said, I’m not brave today.

Still you breathed.

When you said, there’s no point.

Still you breathed.

When you said, I’m beyond help.

Still you breathed.

When you said, Universe- I really don’t believe I’m worthy, that I’ll ever be worthy.

And I’m not going to try anymore to do anything about that.

Still you breathed.

When you said, I don’t want to breathe.

Still my dearest, you breathed.

You were Strong.

You were Fierce.

You were Courageous.

You were a Warrior.

You were Light.

You were Shadow.

You were Seen.

You were Heard.

You were Held.

You are Love.

You are Divine.

You did it Perfectly.

The Rightness of you is without question.

Breathe in. Breathe out.

You are here. In this Moment.